Poke-Me-If-You-Dare

At least I got to take the cats Fuck you You won’t get em back At least I got to take the rest of my life Not wasting another minute on you Okay so you took all my friends Enemies we meet again And I find myself trying to block all thoughts about you About things you never knew And I tell myself I deserved this Well I Stayed with you for three years Because I didn’t have money to move And I Didn’t love you for the second half Even though I lied and said that I did And I Hated your mom No caveat to that She’s just a bitch So peace out I’m gone I guess you won The day you blocked my number And I mean I got t

Let me get this off my chest Because I’ve almost forgotten what it’s like To look into your eyes Because I keep avoiding them I miss knowing that you were happy And that I made you that way Because now I don’t even know what I do to you Besides cause you pain And I regret ever telling anyone about you Because now I feel like a failure You were a fire I couldn’t contain And you burned right through all my walls People still ask me about you And I blow up like the ticking time bomb I once was I thought that wasn’t me anymore Little did I know that the medicine only slows the ticking I’m trying to grasp on

So much for movies And beautiful things So much for adventure You traded for rings And so much for friendship We’d never let go I got lost in the chaos Of what I don’t know I reach I call I stumble I crawl And you fade through it all And now you’re leaving I guess this is goodbye Didn’t bother to tell me Didn’t bother to try So much for memories They fade in the past So much for friendship I thought would last

You used to call me baby And say your words so sweet Now you use my name like a weapon Make me feel like an enemy I gave you everything I had And you tossed it all aside Said you didn't want to erase me But you just passed me by Take the pencil from my hands And erase you from my heart Like you've erased me from your mind And tore me apart Take the bottle from your hands And put me back in your arms Back where I belong Put me back into your heart Haven't heard from you in forever Hope you're doing okay You've probably forgotten me But I think of you every day You've erased our conversations You've gotten a new phone I had to delete every

And it wasn't perfect But it was beautiful And beautiful was how you made me feel And beautiful is how we were Cause when it came down to it all there was was love Beneath the petty fights And all the useless tears There was only love Love we couldn't contain And it exploded like nuclear war Where the scars never quite fade And the repercussions never stop coming Because the love will always be there And it will always hold the most bittersweet pain Because we loved so much It couldn't be contained And I hope one day We can still be beautiful And the pain will fade and there will just be love Because once there was you, there was no one else

Some days are harder than others But most days I wish I could die And I remember how it was when I used to matter But you still do Most days I don’t think I’ll make it And some I almost don’t And I’ll never understand How things fall apart And I’m not in your arms The only thing that ever made me feel better And the memories Are now only bullet holes Used to be roses But now they’re just thorns And the days they just drag on for hours And the nights are even worse Cause I can’t eat I can’t sleep Every minute feels like a year Without you I never thought we’d come to this I remember a

Misleading dreams Crash through my nights Hopes of things Reveal inner fights People who are gone Still near Not lost But you said you were I looked into your unchanged eyes And your wave stained hair Unchanged you were there But you’re not here Almost a year And I’m still bleeding The nightmares left But I’m still beating Up myself How I couldn’t save you Almost a year And I’ll never forget The crash and the burn Of the day that you left I’ll never forget the sound The sound of a thousand hearts breaking The sound of the world around me quaking And often I think about Ways I could have treated you bett

Faded faces in my mind Smiles that should have stood the test of time The sound of laughter in the air Sudden swoosh then they’re gone They were never there And how do I keep these memories alive How do I keep you here When you were left behind Hold on I need you to hold on Why you just let go Oh why I’ll never know Come back Oh why can’t you come back Please just talk to me Just talk to me when I can’t breathe Ice froze over our December hearts Emptied the bellies of our November Oh that harsh, that harsh December I hear a faint hello in my ear Every time I think Every time I wish you’re near Every time I l

If my eyes were black Do you think they’d still sting with tears? Would I remember anything Still live with all these fears And if my eyes were black, Maybe my heart would be too Making it impossible to be in love with you So bring on the stain Cause I’m tired of the tears And I’d like to forget you After all these years And maybe you’ll be The last one I love But I’d be okay with that If my heart were only black

For the longest while My dream was an orange Lamborghini And another one in lime And another in purple But mainly that orange one The perfect shade of orange But I do not know how to Get to orange I do not know what my future holds I have no drive to get there Sometimes I don’t even care Sometimes I want it to stop Because I can see my life Drifting away And I don’t know where to direct it I don’t know how to direct it And I don’t know how to lead myself To that perfect shade of orange